Spiral of Depression

Spiral of Depression
Image credit; Robert Lukeman @ Unsplash
It usually starts with something small
Sometimes I don’t know what it was at all
Sometimes I do

I add more to it, things that don’t even relate
My mind spins as it gets bigger, inflates
Like a spiral, it grew

I’m so far out that I can’t trace it back to where it began
I’m always a burden, no one loves me, I’ll never find love again
I use absolutes

Always never always never always never
I ask questions to which I’ll never find answers
But I’m not seeking truth

I’m mentally unstable, sick, deranged
Why am I like this? Why can’t I change?
If only I knew

If I told you I needed an ear or a shoulder
Would you give me a hug or a hand to hold, or
Would you wait for a day or two?

What if you didn’t take me seriously
Thought I was only acting deliriously
And you waited a few. . . too late.

Copyright © 2022 Brandon Ellrich

September 10th is World Suicide Prevention Day. In the United States, you can call or text 988 for the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline if you are experiencing mental health related crises or if you are worried about a loved one who may need crisis support. You can also visit https://988lifeline.org/. The previous Lifeline number (1-800-273-8255), still remains in effect as well.

This poem is in response to What Do You See #150 at Keep It Alive. Please visit Sadje’s page as well.

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Published by Brandon Ellrich

I live in Central Missouri and enjoy reading, writing, playing tennis, watching movies, and exploring creative outlets. I have a Bachelor of Science degree in psychology and I love to take my readers inside the minds of my characters.

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