Is it only in my head? My dreams are always better than life, Sometimes I wish I were dead, My reality is filled with strife. My dreams are always better than life, I know I’m thinking selfishly, My reality is filled with strife, And nobody really loves me. I know I’m thinking selfishly, That’s just the way it is, And nobody really loves me, Is nothing truer than this? That’s just the way it is, I’m trapped and screaming, yet no one knows, Is nothing truer than this? I’m flying above, see my body below. I’m trapped and screaming, yet no one knows, Sometimes I wish I were dead, I’m flying above, see my body below Or is it only in my head? Copyright © 2022 Brandon Ellrich
This poem was written in response to W3 Prompt #20: Wea’ve Written Weekly – The Skeptic’s Kaddish. Please visit his page to participate or read the other responses.
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Brandon Ellrich, Writer/Author/Poet 
A cry for help!
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This one is overflowing with tension and angst. I felt trapped reading it!
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I’m sorry you felt trapped, but I’m glad to hear that it produced an emotional reaction! 🙂 Thanks for reading.
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You have captured the feeling of being overwhelmed and trapped by living so well, Brandon.
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Thank you. I write partially from experience. I appreciate you reading and commenting.
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We all do, Brandon…what we feel, what we experience slips into our writing. I can only hope and pray this does not happen too often.
You are welcome.
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No, but being suicide awareness month, my birthday month, my (deceased) boyfriend’s birthday….a lot of those kinds of feelings. I appreciate your concern, though.
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It must be very tough. But do try to have a good birthday and take care.
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Thanks! 🙂
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You are welcome. 🙂
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I could feel the hurt and loneliness. Thanks for sharing this.
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You’re welcome, and thank you for reading.
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A moving poem that highlights the importance of raising awareness for mental health issues. I feel these words go deep. ❤️
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Thank you. Yes, they have deep meaning. Thanks for reading and commenting. 🙂
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Brandon, first, I have to say that this is relatable to me – you are not alone in these feelings!
second – I have to say this is a seamless pantoum – it didn’t feel forced in the slightest bit – just perfection!
❤
David
P.S. I got your poem for poetry partners, and I will respond to it this week!
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Thank you very much! That’s a great compliment. I have to say that it was a bit difficult for me at first, but I enjoyed the challenge.
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Brandon,
I just wanna let you know that this week’s W3 prompt, hosted by our beloved Murisopsis, is now live:
❤
David
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Thanks!
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Hi, Brandon!
I just want to let you know that this week’s W3 prompt, hosted by the lovely, lovely Deepthy is now live 🙂
Much love,
David
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Thank you!
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Wow, such a hard place to be. The poem speaks of confusion and regret. Well done.
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Thank you. The writing prompt was a fairly difficult one. I’m glad it turned out the way it did.
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You are welcome.
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This was very deep. The words used, the scene that was painted and the opening up to share something like this… Really appreciate it and can relate to a certain level.
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Thank you. In a way, I feel sorry that anyone can relate.
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Yeah, sometimes it’s good because someone’s pain being expressed can help another get through.
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Hi There
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Hello
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